On Sadness

Today is my last day of maternity leave - I go back to work on Thursday. If you would have asked me 12 weeks ago if I would not have wanted to go back to work, I would have laughed at you. Now, the thought of leaving Sloane, of not spending every moment, waking and sleeping, with her is breaking my heart.

Don't get me wrong, I really like my job and I think I'm good at it - it just isn't what I want right now. Staying home is not financially viable for us now, so I just have to suck it up and stop making myself miserable.

She is sleeping now, with a sleepy little smile on her face. She's such a happy, funny little girl - I'm so lucky to have her in my life.